And so this is my first entry. I am feeling overwhelmed with emotions about the new journey I have decided to take on to find my soulmate and have a family. This may seem like a normal task that anyone with a heart and brain may want to take on; but crazy enough, there are some obstacles in my life that have made it a challenge to believe that there is such an opportunity for me. Mostly for two major reasons: 1-I have had two “failed” marriages, and 2-I had a tubal ligation when I was 27. At the time I was certain I was done having children (clearly because I already had my two perfect children Kelly and Sebastian, HAHA!! (Yes, I’m including this in case my already grown children read this- I must always continue to earn brownie points with my babies no matter what!?!)).
I am now 40 years old and I have come to a place in my life where being single no longer interests me. I have worked for what I wanted and reached every goal to the extent that it makes me happy. Humbly speaking, in my life I have done the majority of the things I wanted to do. My daddy consistently boasted that he “had always gotten what he had always wanted, and there is nothing in this world that cannot be achieved”. Of course he used to say this to me in Spanish since that is the one and only language he speaks. It didn’t matter what language he said it in however; my dad was always an encouraging, loving, nurturing, fine man. He made sure to balance the craziness and passion my mother brought to the relationship, and as a default also to the family. As you can tell I am a daddy’s girl (thankful for that). If you are a daddy’s girl, you understand that no one will ever measure up to him, but you will always be in the hopes of finding a man that will love you as unconditionally as he did/does. This is not to say that I do not love and respect the lioness who is my mother. God!!! I can only hope to always be as fierce in loving, rearing, and protecting my partner in life and our children forever!!! For this reason I believe that this is the journey that is laid out before me and I want to share with you what this journey will bring, now that I have made this decision. I hope that through this site I will be able to share the joys, challenges, details, humor, and inspiration this journey is sure to bring with it.
In love and light,